Here I am

in a new big city, the city, the one city that I've been talking about moving to for about four years, yeah that one. BERLIN!

Yeah that's a super hazy picture but it's from an old ass camera so get out of my face dawg! You're welcome for the teaser.

Neglectful Intentions

It is very easy to forget, ignore, postpone, procrastinate, and generally neglect. I have recently come to the realization that within this realm of absent-mindedness I am queen. This is something I have been coping with my whole life; be it with schooling, following through on plans, or sticking with something when it's not the easiest. It never really occurred to me that you can move through life and have the  pause button activated. For me that means not coming to terms with my choices or actually making the change I want. Part of this is fear, and the other part weakness.

In order to grab life by the hairy ball sack and be it's dom I need to accept, process, and decide. It's ok to get lost sometimes, but for now I need to push through the flesh tunnel that is my life and figure some shit out.

My life.

Today was interesting, to say the least. I woke up to a man name Sherman in my room. He was not as friendly as I thought he would be. Although he did tell me the secrets of the universe before he punched me.

Phase two

While this podcast we've created might not be the most entertaining thing for other people, it has made me very happy. Not only do I get to hang with a good friend, but I get to giggle and be ridiculous with the slight hope that someone else thinks I'm funny. Enjoy episode two!

One of my Winter Projects

Is starting a blog with my friend Drew, and here's the first episode.

these people

are more than my roommates, they are my best friends who make me soup, carve pumpkins with me, and rub my back when I'm crying.

Also they adorably match without planning it.

best friends

they are those courageous soldiers who sick with you at your worst and your best. they know when to claw you out of an emotional cave that is littered with chocolate posters and jeff goldblum pictures, or when to buy you another shot of tequila. i am insanely grateful for the love these people choose to envelope me with. oh yeah, here'e two of the beauties now!

tiny dogs who accessorize properly

haiku

tonight i have fun
its not what happens but its
what occurs after

Reasons to Visit Florence

i found this gem while rummaging through the book collection at goodwill. page 58 had the italian translation for i want to go where there are no tourists.

The Secret Of Success

Is to do what you love. i have always been creative and productive, but never in a million years would I believe that I could profit off my art. this up coming thursday might turn that notion upside down when my good friend austin and i attempt to sell off prints of our film photos. now, my commrade is a photographer, his forte is taking the most luxuriously seductive photos that leave you wanting more. then there's me, i went to europe last year equipped with a diana mini toy camera and snapped some surprisingly beautiful shots. here's a taste of my work that i might sell. worst case senario i'll have to give away the stuff i don't sell to my unexpecting friends and colleagues.

It's a beautiful world when

Even though you come in last place at your race you still end up getting third and seeing this

breakfast sammich

Made with eggs from happy egg laying chickens, organic tillamook sharp cheddar, local baguette, and truffle salt. life is good would be an understatement.

I've been working six day weeks lately, and due to my over zealous work schedule i have discovered that the things that keep me sane are food related. nothing zens me out more than making a cake, even if J thinks that it tastes like dirt. or opening a box of csa and figuring out how to use the cutest rainbow carrots in my cooking. or making barbeque chicken pizza TWICE in one week, and from scratch no less. my bf is one lucky duck, and so is my stomach and mind.

As the weather turns for the better, so do my spirits and my clarity. even though i've been through some rough patches over the past few weeks, i feel everything changing. it's kinda like with the coming of spring the world is giving me a thumbs up that its all going to get better.

out with the old

and in with less bedding. last night was our last night with ye olde pendelton, hallo real warm open windows spring!

its real

now that we have our tickets to EUROPE, i can do what i do best. plan plan plan plan.

they say

the challenging things you must go through often shape the best things about life. i've have a bout of the former lately, the highlight of that being my first ever trip to the ER. that fun five hour event was followed by some bad decisions and a busted up face. on the bright side of all this i have rediscovered friendship love and am more appreciative than ever of the people that surround me. there was a common streak for a while of me hating people in general, so maybe this was a wake up call? then again, maybe it was just being being an adolescent and wrestling when i shouldn't have.

i'm getting better at finding myself within a space, and recognizing certain aspects that need to be fixed. it's challenging to walk away from trauma and realize it's all going to be ok without doing some soul searching and meditation. it is for me at least.  the key words i've found in this past week are reliance and humility.

hey you

start following my tumblr, as i may entirely switch over.

i am

quite possibly the coolest and most fashionable person i know, just sayin'. on the other hand i don't know that many people soooooooooo, yeah.

this is what I like to call old man chic. pants I've owned since high school, first shirt i ever took from a free pile, an h&m lavender cardigan, and brown leather oxford shoozies. i've also given up bangs, it's been a good run, yet its time to suck it up and become the hippie i really am inside. i have no idea what that means so let's just leave it there. i've been taking plenty of pictures of daphne, so be prepared for that.

i want to go back to hawaii as soon as possible.

one of the many

Reasons I love Portland is it's free piles. Now I've been know for quite some time to appreciate the freeer things in life, but I am always amazed at what people give away. With the general mentality of PDX being more liberal than my hometown I have definitely acquired more than my fair share of shit and gold over the past few years. Thats how the stuff from free piles usually boils down to either gold or shit. Here's some gold that I found right in my own backyard behind the dumpster.

Heck yes, free green Doc Martins straight from the UK that fit like a glove.